why are good girlfriends so hard to find?

sometimes i want to shout in your face "grow the fuck up".

but i wouldn't waste my time.

nostalgia.

i miss when we first met. i miss when we were silly. i miss when it wasn't about looking "cool" and being part of that clique. i miss sitting in random houses smoking and drinking soco. i miss bitching on msn for hours. i miss meeting in glasgow for random afternoons. i miss shite gigs. i miss bonding. i miss when it was girlfriends first. i miss texting non stop. i miss long phone calls. i miss true pals and i miss actually feeling like i could trust you.

this week has been utterly disappointing.

fourth.

The Xcerts, Blackfriars, 9pm, £4 otd.

really looking forward to this tonight!

third.

i've spent the last two hours listening to Placebo.

it takes me back to being between 11 and maybe 16 years old and being a complete and utter mess. tonight i am back there, feeling the exact same and really not knowing where or who to turn to.

someone, someday will get me.

second.

"this isn't working out"

first.